Best Day Project is an LGBTQIA Youth Suicide Prevention Organization that is dedicated to helping you achieve your dreams. 

We are giving out "Best Days" to individuals who have overcome depression and typically lack a voice in mainstream media, but have stories that need to be told. Our goal is to make as many dreams come true as possible, send a message of hope and inspire those in need to actively create positive and rewarding experiences for themselves.
But really, we want everyone to have the Best Day of their lives, regardless of their personal story, so everyone should submit their dream to us and we'll do our best to make it come true!

So, tell us, what's the one thing you've always wanted to do? 

 

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How it all began: Grace's Story

"Growing up gay in Asian society was like being Will Smith in I Am Legend. 

I lived in a world seemingly devoid of any hope.

I've known I was gay since I was four years old and growing up in a conservative, religious Asian household in gay-friendly San Francisco was my version of a lonely post-apocalyptic world. I had been told in sermons week after week that there was no greater sin than being homosexual and that I'd go to hell for feeling these urges that I couldn't understand as a four-year-old. I genuinely believed I had no chance at real happiness in this life and that my soul would be damned in the next.

I was so scared of letting my secret out that I went selectively mute from age four to twenty-four. I didn't talk unless it was to request basic needs like food, water and toys. I lived in complete isolation and miserably trudged along through my young life. I thought happiness was an emotion I didn't deserve to feel and never allowed it to take camp in my heart. At the ripe age of eight, I decided that the only solution was to take my life as soon as I graduated from college. Even though I was so miserable I could have ended it then and there, some part of my Asian genes wouldn't let me die without affixing M.D., Ph.D. or some other string of letters to the end of my name. I settled on B.A.

I lived my life truly believing I had an expiration date. I hoped for death and had no concern for my safety, which led me to make a lot of bad decisions. I'd buy drugs from homeless men off of Craigslist, drive at 120 mph with my eyes closed, stand on the ledge of any building I could sneak into and try any sort of drug and alcohol combination that would just let me feel… something, but nothing worked. I went 20 years living in this hopeless prison I had created for myself in my head.

Once I graduated from college and D-Day arrived, I was more than ready to plunge head first into the abyss. I reflected on my life as I counted down the minutes before I'd take the pills to end it.For some reason in the midst of it all, I tried to remember the happiest day of my life. There wasn't one. I made the decision then and there that I deserved one last day that would be the best day of my life. I figured I owed it to myself.

I decided to spend the day gallivanting around the city of San Francisco. I rode a cable car, explored different areas, went to three different bookstores and discovered a bench with the most peculiar writing scribbled on it.

"There's beauty in everything, it's up to you to see it."

In that moment of enlightenment, I realized I'll never know the meaning of why I'm here but as long as the world keeps spinning, I have the power to make my life whatever I want it to be. We don't have control of the events in our lives, but we have control over how we react to them. Life will run everyone down at some point, but you can choose to either let it consume you or rise above it.

I realized I had just had the best day of my life and none of the things I had done to make it the best day were out of the ordinary. All that changed was the way I approached the day in my mind. I wanted it to be the best day and so I approached it as if it were going to be. It led me to take risks, leave my comfort zone and do the things I'd normally never do out of fear.

As humans, we are most afraid of the unknown, and that makes us stick within certain boundaries that we know we can handle. We have volition, but if we consistently limit ourselves from pursuing certain avenues out of fear, we deprive ourselves of all the possibilities awaiting us.

Living my life in fear had deprived me of experiences, and most of all, happiness. I decided from that day on, I was going to live the exact kind of life I wanted to live, be the exact kind of person I wanted to be, and see the beauty of life by approaching every day as if it's going to be the best.

This is my Best Day Project.

 

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I've written out all the things I've always wanted to do. There's everything from skydiving and performing random acts of kindness to basic things like hitting on a girl for the first time that my experience growing up a depressed, selectively-mute loner didn't allow me to do. I draw one task at random before I leave my house each morning, force myself to do it and fall in love with life a little more every day. Wounds have been healing, courage has been gained, and every day has been the best day of my life."

- Grace